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hello my love hey in my defense it was 12:30 i don't know that book just made me want to just be ok by myself you know what i mean? like in high school especially my junior year i got to be comfortable being alone like i was ok with that and i want that again i don't like having to depend on other people to make me content does that make sense? also i read this talk the other night that made me feel along the same lines this is something he said :

"There is a line in the Disney movie "Cool Runnings" where the coach is talking about the painful lesson he learned by being caught cheating in the Olympics. He said that he cheated because he just had to be successful. He cheated because he just had to win. He said that, as a result, he learned that if you were not good enough without it, you would never be good enough with it.

There are a lot of things you should never have to have. Having to have things can make you miserable.

If you have to have a 4.0 GPA, you need to be good enough without it.
If you have to be popular, you need to be good enough without it.
If you have to be good-looking, you need to be good enough without it.
If you have to have a lot of money, you need to be good enough without it.
If you have to have romance in your life right now, you need to be good enough without it.

You are a son or daughter of God. You can do without those things."

i don''t know yeah i just have just been really intropspective-ish lately meh tell me what you think
yeah i am sure after i figure things out i will stop being anti social etc meh i love you pretty much and i am glad we have been talking a lot on thephone this week cause i miss ya